S H A D O W • S U R F A C I N G
January 21, 2019
This Eclipse season began with a New Moon Karmic Cleanse Kundalini class here in Houston at Yoga Central. Powerful. I find so much joy in this practice. Often through uncovering pain.
Kriyas often bring to the surface memories of trauma and stored up emotions from past experiences in this lifetime I deemed inappropriate. They are invitations to revisit and reintegrate. I’ve come to realize that in order to truly love myself, I have to love ALL of myself. Including my trauma, painful experiences and moments I felt shame, fear, unworthy of love and all of the other “bad” emotions. I have to love myself as a complete and whole Being.
In my Wolf Blood Moon meditation I received a new layer of understanding regarding how we treat our painful experiences. We make them villains, much like the Wolf in western folklore, try to eradicate them, bury them. Hide from them I houses of bricks. Avoid them with any number of distractions.
Did you know that when wolves were reintroduced to Yellowstone National Park they brought the ecosystem back into balance? Beavers had nearly disappeared from the park because the Aspen were being over grazed by prey animals. The wolves returned and they shaped the forests and rivers with the important role they play. A role we have traditionally characterized as evil. That we feel fearful about because of our lack of broader vision and understanding.
It is the same with our painful experiences. What if we can reintroduce them now, while in our power? To integrate them. Bring our Being into balance. To love them for the role they play in the emotional and spiritual ecosystem. To move through the fear. To see the beauty that is the role of the Wolf.